Wednesday

 

Sugar


Tapping on the glass like a telegraphist,

Bee mines at cloud that will not chip,

her puffy head in fruitless googling.


It does not translate. The outside 

is resin, resulting in zero- an ice cube, 

her boat at the walls of the studio. 


Bee is aghast. Her leggings stuck 

fat with sherbert, urgent on the sill

in her stillness. The fighter plane hinges


through an impossible expanse, vicious

with freedom. The world enfolds the practice.

He is insatiable- a garden of need.


The Ching


The Airfix egret startles, 

gone mystic to basic in 0-60,


The Cow Parsley’s arms 

from a folk dance or swords


Stashes rat, a conduit, rustic 

as pasta. Streaking the freeway


Where once he died, dense

as an unthrown pot, Ming tail


ironed flat by a pushchair-

also died, pestle-ground down 


Like mince. Nature corridor

they call it, the homeless in pop


Tents like pyramid tea bags 

worn thin to oblivion. Sapped


To the max yet there goes

the Ching, through stabbings,


The unsure limbs of demographics,

the toilety dogs of the elders, older


Ever indifferent, conveyor of ducklets,

all being, all shewing, all flow.


If it were up to me you’d be

made of bodywarmers 


in artisan socks from 

Iceland, Eigg or Hoth


even in June, in June

I want to keep you 


bundled, call you toast

and soft and close as 


microwaved milk

in a crumpet oubliette.


Ready Brek jet setter,

your crown a fiery hob


Top of the Pops and bonfire 

fudge, nestled in fleece,


honey, middle encased

in a crucible of cashmere,


forever sleep snug in a 3.5 tog

my tiny love, fisherman’s friend.



It starts in the toes

of a ropey morning,

the passing of summer,

the open-eyed pastures,

a lounging in stasis,

done. Your toes,


and they say useless, say

done. And they say how well

you alienated the lot of it-

pals. The scene... you did it!

Became one


with the absolute inward,

silent hour- it carries you,

alone as a craft. Bears


weight, the days like  

puffs that end in an echo,

as Sugar Puffs or

clouds with their silver 

slices, your snacks, 

your snacks, some 

frisson of sadness, O

toes-


what will you do once the

Autumn descends upon leaves 

upon the leaves? They

hang on your every word 



Cluster lilies in their blue fire thrust
up through Wednesday morning. 
Tomorrow will be the same like those

falling Dominoes that go up and over
and around, or mattresses too, 
all people going backwards on YouTube.

They are like that. I like it, the simplicity,
these flowers will brown and I will buy some
more, doodle them onto the vase 

with an immediate pencil. Days go by 
in some kind of sequence but suddenly
I am old. When I dream of Goblin Hill

and I am always 12- a tooth we 
dissolved in Coke, I think: In 100 years 
we will all be dead. It’s as hard to imagine

as space- or the softness of Mum’s
upper arms. They existed and Honey &
Betsy too. Such tenderness in every

rickety synapse, built-in, see-through.
All we ever can say is I love you brave wraith-
I will always forever love you. 

Thursday

Spring is delicious in flames and ginger,
the dead dog’s tree is opening out right- 
buds with the smallest flickering of
acid house in the tip, finally and all after 
we had given it up. The fairy ring as a pink 
mouth and a just-kiss from his best friend

smashes it up into the April. This year
we are not allowed outside- it suits me fine
for only the forest is sad without the old gang,
me and Doggin. I had not been up there, 
for to clock the loss of together would be 
too much, right. Kinga was vivid, every old lady

would fizz and cry such a beautiful dog. And he was.
A streak of fire in the trees, his white trousers
at the back bobbing along under his fern-proud
tail, everyone loved that boy. This year we are 
not allowed outside, but it suits me down to 
the ground- old World with its all kinds of glitches,

some good stuff like cinema and magicians,
but mostly ice. They’ve gone and done it now-
the whole of the everything’s shut. The place is 
in bits and it’s not so bad, just an egg-coloured 
ghost with dark wailings of Easter all in scrambles,
I’m opted out, see. Spring is the king and I’m free.

New Year New 

If a Mergirl: Get some ear-pods for underwater casting, it's important to keep in touch with yourself in that way. Try not to zigzag and cancel the fear of braining yourself against the chiselled purses of younger maids

Always drink wine at lunch time, it’s French. Also have the full good time. Christmas is 
forever, think apocalypse ready. In dreams of being a handy woman, try for some fifties 
thing, a sweetheart neckline

Books are noble, poetry is telly. Make them and read them but never be them. You are only ever one reading away from wearing a beret. Keep your Kerouac in sandwich bags for cleanliness. Bohemia is literally bourgeois 

Supreme satisfaction from folding clothes into perfect rectangles. Housework is artform yet underrated. The happiness of a clean home, it’s not that bad. In the moment we are somewhere else, whipping up cosy like drugs

Clothe refugees in your old Topshop. Open your heart to the online community yet scorch ego like the plague. Socialise with anyone who can tolerate you and love with your full heart. Life is now a beautiful snow globe
Grief has the same secrecy 
as an empty tic tac box filled with
puddle water. The parachuting 
man we hid in the petrol cap 
of your Mum’s car, quick stolen, 
the handkerchief I buried in the trees.

I liked the embroidery. I like it now,
this grief and its stitches, it makes
me flower even through snot. Things
fly past the planet, roaring. I like
the axis, the counting down. Nostalgia
is a cutie, bean-filled Totoro.

The whirl of fur he lived in. His ancient
teeth that ripped me, the bad quality,
we went all over the world in love.
Paws are unshook hands- yet I'm shaken.
Don’t worry Dog, I’ll find you. In galaxies,
through death. I’ll always be your person.

Tuesday

In the pink room we have found
each other, you in the blue sling
and I deep in the dreams that
I have for you. It is raining post-
heatwave and I am glad your tiny
feet are cold as shells, my heart-
beat pressed up hard against
your ear. Nothing can touch us

now. Your duckling hair is real,
as you are- I never thought we’d
get this far. I had you in mind for
so long you’re still made up, an
unbuilt world. Sometimes you 
chirp and I realise you’re here,
hot little hands in a grip, how 
serious you are. When your eyes

open they are in flint, intent, 
certain in some cold burning that
you've been here before. Wrap me 
up in that, I like it. I like you a lot
small policeman. You are the icing
on the ocean- a dot! And when you're 
asleep I transcribe every breath,
golden crest, tiny bird, new entire.